Friday, May 28, 2010

transient thoughts...

i was feeling heavy on the inside as i walked carefully on the old bricks, dodging the tree roots where they bulged up out of the ground and broke apart the path.
a slight drizzle began, and i slowed down and turned my focus upward for a moment, trying to read the sky.
but then the drizzle turned into a downpour, and i stepped underneath the shelter of a giant, aged oak tree.... a little reprieve.... a deep breath.
as i inhaled, a drop of saltwater began to trickle down my cheek, as if to show unity with the decision of the skies that day.
the funny thing was, that, in perfect synchronization, one huge raindrop made it through the leafy canopy and fell onto me.
i wondered, as it slid onto my forehead, if it picked up the scent of my hair on the way.
it continued to heed the law of gravity, and slowly trickled down my face and mingled with the drop of saltwater that had escaped the confines of that still broken place.
i felt its path as it slid onto my shoulder and then watched it get washed into the cracks of the sidewalk.... my tear, my scent, my skin mixed in with it.
i thought about where it had been in all its journeys... millions of years making its way through the earth and into rivers and air and clouds.
who else had once been in that raindrop?
whose scent and skin cells and tears and dust had it held, only to purify itself across stones? make it all void and start all over again.

then i exhaled and stepped out from under the tree.
i took my shoes off and let my feet sink down into the wet earth and grass.
i stood there and let my skin absorb every drop it could. life was in those drops of rain.
and i loved it all during that ephemeral moment.
i loved the wet dirt, the slimy bricks, the feel of my soaked dress clinging to my skin.
i looked over and saw a little old lady watching me from her porch swing......
and i think i loved her most of all.

3 comments:

Moi said...

ever since you mentioned about dropping out of FB..I have been thinking of sharing this with you....enjoy! listen to it if you can on you tube, perhaps....

"I think it's time to put myself away
Seek out a little silence
Close the doors and sit a while
And walk a little

And as I put my words away
The flow slows
See this penny in the stream
Picking it up is easy

Follow the shape of it
Jump in
Swallow it whole
Jump in

Even though I know my way around
Possibly there's something that I found
Holdin' on for findin' solid ground
Someday soon, someday soon

Gonna turn myself into the grass
And I'll grow
Take this space above my head
And live a little, little

Gonna wear my feathered headdress
Like an Indian chief
Gonna stretch out both my arms
I'm gonna test the temperature

Follow the taste of it
Jump in
Swallow it whole
Jump in

Even though I know my way around
Possibly there's something new I found
Holdin? on for findin' solid ground
Oh, oh, oh

Even though I know my way around
Possibly there's something new I found
Holdin? on for findin' solid ground
Someday soon, someday soon

Maybe walk a little
Someday soon"

bluemountainmama said...

it's perfect, moi.... what song is it?

Moi said...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CMLkvAzuOBA

Someday Soon by KT Tunstall